As I sit here today, I ponder what the past several weeks have brought to my life. New awareness along with a better understanding for the power of the mind is but one of many lessons learned. I look in the mirror and have a bit of disbelief over what I’ve accomplished. In many ways it is surreal to see what I have set out to do and the steps taken to get to my goal. In the process of transforming, it can be most difficult to self-evaluate. Today though, I see the blood, sweat and tears (lots of them) put forth to make all of this my reality. I’ve been distant and vacant from the daily norms in order to get to this point. I will emerge having learned a few lessons and gained inner strength that only comes from challenging yourself in new ways.
This physical transformation could not have come from a weak-minded person. Only someone willing to put in their time, face their fears and display courage and strength could get to this day. Never giving up when it seemed impossible. Never backing down when your body gives out. Fighting for each day until you hit the final stretch. I’m proud to say, I am that someone. I’m not sure why, but the highs have felt higher and the lows even lower than ever before during this prep. This is not a road easily traveled, but the path I’ve taken has been an elective one. Giving up was never an option.
There comes a time when you need to self-evaluate. I’ve discovered a whole new level of consciousness. I’m sure my husband wants his wife back and my kids want their mom back too. I’ve been here all along, just in a heightened state of crazy. I believe you have to be moderately nuts to go through this electively, however, I am happy to be among those on this crazy train. Working hard to accomplish a goal is a very personal thing for each of us. It doesn’t have to be a figure show, but if I’ve inspired you in some way, I’m honored and privileged to have shared this experience with you.
A heartfelt thank you to everyone that has followed my journey and been so supportive. In my eyes, I have already won something so pure, no trophy could hold a candle to it. I have new perspectives and strengths that I’m grateful for. I look forward to seeing you on the other side.