Anyone that knows me well also knows that if there is a sport I can compete in while wearing heels, you don’t have to ask me twice. Figure was tailor-made for me. My thoughts have become very clear in these past weeks. I wonder if it has anything to do with completely omitting alcohol….
On that note, I have some very exciting news to share with respect to my training. In the past couple of weeks, I made a huge decision in the hopes of further gaining my winning edge. I’ve officially signed on as a Team Bombshell athlete! I know that Shannon Dey is going to turn my world upside down, but that is exactly what I want. Growth only comes in stepping outside of your comfort zone and I will say that this is very uncomfortable for me. I have had such anxiety is relinquishing any amount of control and handing it over to her. I’m taking a leap of faith, but I feel confident she can coach me to the next level.
My decision comes from an array of reasons, but the main motivation for me is my quality of time. In competing in this arena, I realize that there are girls that utilize shows as a goal to get in shape, loose weight or to challenge themselves and that is all truly great. I, however, am not one of those girls. At this point in my life, anything that sacrifices any amount of my time away from my family, better be time well spent. I’m not willing to compromise on any level when it comes to this. I realize competing is hard enough on it’s own, but add a husband and 3 children on top and I have days where I wonder what I was thinking. I’m determined to win the balancing act, though it definitely has its moment of what feels like near mental breakdown. Still, I push on. I hope my kids can gain a great message out of what I’m doing. They can relate it to anything of importance in their own lives. My daughter, the gymnast, told me the other day she’d like to become more competitive in her sport. I feel a real sense of pride knowing she is just like her mama.
Sometimes, when good things are happening for you, you can immediately weed out those that are genuinely happy for you from the ones that are not. It can be a hard learning curve to accept that as much as people want to see you succeed, those same people can be the first to tear you down. I do have several very supportive and positive forces in my life. Unfortunately there are also those that are not. I have had to really take a step back and give greater appreciation to where it does come from versus not. I prefer to always focus on the positive so that I can attain more of that. Giving more attention to the negative will only request more of the same dynamic in life. I’d be lying if I said it didn’t hurt me. I’ve come to better understand that those that are truly happy within themselves do not behave this way.
I’m right where I want to be. Dreaming, aspiring and working hard towards everything I want in my life is exactly what drives me today. I couldn’t say the same 10 years ago. I feel wiser and perhaps that is something that has come with age for me. Maybe that is also due in part to the few, extremely supportive forces in my live. Never mind the others, let them keep being ordinary while I’m working on extraordinary.
Dare to dream your wildest dreams and may they come true for you. Possess the strength to trek through the mud when the going gets tough. Just know the rainbow lies on the other side of the storm.