Long ago I dreamt of writing a book. Not another Paleo cookbook or a fitness related book, just a book about some very difficult and dark parts of my life that have allowed me to become the person I am today. I believe that through our weakness we are able to build our greatest strengths. I am proof of that. I’ve put off revealing these things about myself for a very long time for fear of being judged or feeling vulnerable. Unless I trust you, vulnerability is not a side of me many experience. Being sarcastic and outspoken is what comes natural and I pride myself in being real, so the decision to get really real is not one I took lightly. Some of the people closest to me do not know these things about me, weren’t there for me during these dark times and might even be hurt in learning some of these things. This has been my internal struggle in the decision in sharing my past with you.
Only recently, after being encouraged by a dear friend who I greatly admire, was I able to allow myself to show this side of me. So as I spend the next few months allowing my darkness to shine some light, I am aware that my own fear of judgement and vulnerability has held me back from potentially helping you in some way. I will no longer allow that to control me and I have committed to this project with my whole heart. As each chapter floods out of me, this has become a sort of therapy over issues I have never completely dealt with. My keyboard covered in tears, I know this is what I am supposed to do.
Thanks so much for allowing me to share my voice with you, I appreciate the support from so many of you that have chosen to follow my journey. Maybe now, you’ll see what I am truly made of.